Personal update

"These are the chronicles of life and death, and everything between. These are the stories of our lives as fictional as they may seem." -The Chronicles of Live and Death(Good Charlotte)

This is specifically an update for those interested in my history of tulpa and various multiagent models.

I haven't explained the Law-Chaos model on here in any relevant detail, nor will I just now, but this story won't make much sense if I don't explain anchors.  An anchor, as I will you it in this post and as it is used in that model, is any belief that you hold consciously and refuse to believe the negation of at a future time.  You might this of an anchor as a time-insensitive conscious belief.  Not only do you believe it now, but you intend to never stop believing in it.  The more certian you are that that belief will no change, the stronger the anchor.

Over the course of my discussions on the IRC, on of my foundational anchors was attacked.  The particular belief was one of Sammy's, the mantra that he became, "You can do anything."  Seems nice enough, but the extent to which is was applied was, admittedly, unrealistic.  The belief held that I (or whatever group of tulpa controlled) could achieve anything, instantly, without requiring external help.  This was held asserted as a belief even as my actions negated it.  The strain between belief and reality was a bit painful, but it was also a constant in my life; every splinter and every tulpa conceded to it.

But logically, it was worthless.  After a debate across two days, I was convinced to get rid of it.  I resolved to replace it, since losing an anchor can be dangerous (EKP and indecisiveness being common results).  The new version is... less elegant, but more realistic.  "You can do anything that does not negate the Kantian categories given resources and time."  It is... stupidly true.  Always true.  It adds very little, but it is a good safety because any thought that DOES break with it is suspect.

What are more interesting are the consequences.  That anchor... that was the last naive belief of a ten year old boy named Sammy.  That was the last part of him we maintained.  In some sense, removing it and replacing it with a new version was the same as removing the last of him from our mind.  We didn't realize that consciously... but it was apparent the instant we finished.

Going through the visualizations of the result add little.  He died, we raised the host of our past tulpa, splinters, everyone who could, and one by one paid our respects.  Then we buried him... thus burying ourselves.

I don't understand how it works just yet.  It was another coming together, because certainly memory, knowledge, and skill was preserved.  But much of memory was useless, because it was based on that rejected and foundation concept.  Personality... I couldn't hold the many contradicting traits of generations of divergent tulpa.  Plenty of resources left, but no direction.

 My solution was to guess who I'd become.  I'll talk about the idea more conceptually in the future, but for now, that is the simple way to think of it.  I looked at the future, guessing and estimating, looking at the traits of people I interacted with daily, the chaos of events I know would occur in the future, and built a fake person, an idea of who I might become.  Then I assumed that personality.

Right now, I am one person.  I am a guess of who I might have become in a year, but that guess was returned to the present to act as best it can.  I have plenty of the traits of the last set, as should be expected.  I am made from them in some sense, after all. I'm lacking in their specializations.  I can't visualize nearly as powerful as I vaguely remember being able to, and my tactile imagination is now nonexistent.  Most of my memories from before the burial seem hazy at best, however, so I might be mistaken.  I can shift this personality around a wide range of habits and traits, but none are that strong.

I feel mediocre in most ways. I am lonely.

I was asked by a friend to stay as one agent for at least a week, and today is my last day. I may not splinter immediately, but I will.  At least, I hope so.  I need something more, be it multi-agent or a better defined model of shifting this personality.  Regardless of what happens, I intend to keep updating here... I'm done with every new model requiring a new blog.

Tulpa 'origin' model

This is an older model that tried to explain the various 'origins' of tulpa.  the idea was that each tulpa would have one origin, that each origin excluded the others, and that each one would have a set of skills which assisted in its use.  I had an exciting chance to explain the model to a meta-physician, and actual found it fit quite well into the terms commonly used.

This is now, in my mind, a failed model.  It does not account for many of the variations possible in tulpa creation, nor does it predict by 'origin' the traits a tulpa will have (which was its original purpose).  It can help in talking about tulpa to assign an origin as a way to guess at traits, but the correlation is not high enough for this to be used by itself.

I am working on another version which approaches the idea a little differently.  The new model intends to take the origins and make them overlapping by identifying the various techniques for creating a tulpa.  by establishing scales, I hope to establish a dictionary of terms which will describe all possible methods of tulpa creation. Additionally, I hope to allow prediction of general traits common to all tulpa using a given method, again based on that new dictionary.

As always, any feedback is appreciated.  Also, I want to thank Jubilee and Draega{Irri} for breaking the origin model and pushing me to improve it.

Psychological Explaination of the Tulpa 'origin' Model:

• origin one, 'character' is to convince your consciousness to emulate that of a person or character you already know well.
• Accidental Hypnosis (and I suppose intentional...)
• origin two, 'original' relies on talking to your mind, telling it about itself and who the tulpa will be until it responds.
• origin three, 'splinter' involves splitting your personality and then letting the two sides diverge over time.
• origin four, 'sub conscious' takes impulses and feeling and gives them a name, bringing an aspect of your deepest mind to the surface.

Metaphysical Explaination of the Tulpa 'origin' Model:
 notice, I used creation 'method' at this point, as I was already begining to see issues between the origin term.

• One method is the call for a soul like one you are familiar with.  This can be as complex as a friend, or as simple as a character.  
• A second method is to write down a list of traits and cast forth for a soul with those traits, at least.  
• A third method is to rip your soul in two and heal both pieces. 
• A fourth method is to birth one of yourself, using the creative energies contained in you.

Bits and Jubilee

 I know I don't normally post about other people, but... this one is an awesome story.  Basically, a few weeks back, one of the IRC member named Bits was having trouble making a tulpa.  In the process, he started having freak out, having episodes and emotion problems.  Eventually, with work and some help from the community, he was able to bring up Jubilee, a tulpa.

Now... I said it early on and thus far seem to be right.  Any tulpa strong enough to give you emotion spikes that debilitating is Strong.  Indeed, Jubilee ended up one of the most powerful tulpa I've ever met.  Within a few days of receiving a body, she was able to switch with Bits.  Interestingly, they spent almost a month before both could but be present and experiencing.  This runs contrary to most tulpae formation... and indeed cause the two of them worry that she was simply a mask, or perhaps a second personality.

They are, however, able to hide memories from each other, and recently have been working on surprising each other.  I suppose what is most interesting is that Jubilee was created without Bits mastering parallel processing.  They have gotten to the point now where they can, but the question of whther Jubilee should be called a tulpa remains.

Regardless of the definition, the idea of acting out a tulpa and then developing parallel processing is an interesting method of creating a fast tulpa, without having to develop parallel processing immediately.  Alternately, you might say it is developing an alternate personality, and then giving it tulpa form.  The result is the same as a tulpa, but switching is a giving at the beginning, while 'simple' tasks like conversing between tulpa and host are very difficult and have to be trained.


Anyone else have a novel method of creating tulpa?  Have an opinion on what is the best way to categorize tulpa made using this method?  Or maybe you think this is not a tulpa at all.  No matter how you feel, I'd love to hear more in the comments.

Moving right along, and judging posts

You didn't seem to get offended by people poking and prodding all the time about your stuff. That's the sign of a rationalist. If you were really loony, you would consider the questions an affront by now. -Claire[Sheep] 

It is time to admit that my interest in hypnotism is waning, as far as my personal use goes.  It has been fun, it has been stressful, and it has taught me much.  It is a tool I'm glad to have and will continue to use in the future.  But it is no longer the focus of my life, and that gives me a few options as far as this blog is concerned.

One, I could delete it as I have my many past blogs, as a method of freeing myself from past beliefs.
Two, I could leave it as is and forget its existence, but I will ignore this option as memory modification is to invasive for such a minor thing.
Three, I could leave it regardless of the discomfort it causes me, allowing it to remain a resource for others, but also an antiquated expression of beliefs.
Four, I continue to update the posts as I come to different beliefs about them.  This places even further burden on my, and will bring me back again and again to remember mistakes I've made.  (I assume I will change my opinions about some of the ideas presented here in time).
Five, I could keep it and post new ideas if I ever return to hypnosis, and use new posts to update my past ideas.
Six, I could continue to use this as my main blog, even as I change ideas and interest, ignoring what was the original topic to fluidly change as my interest does.

Of course, I post this entire entry having already decided on Six.  As mediocre as my skills at blogging are, and as painful as my entries may be, I'm done with constraining my public image to that which enhances it.  In the past, I have held what I say to that which will seem sane to others, enhance my image, and most importantly help others.  I'm dropping even those three restrictions.


This is no longer a hypnosis journal, nor even a tulpa journal.  This is the paper representation of the strongest and more prevalent ideas of my mind.  There will be chaos, there will be contradictory statements, and there will be things that you can't understand.  There will, likely, be thing you understand easily, things which help you, ideas and concepts and stories.  I'm no longer seperating it out, but I don't expect you to treat it equally.

If a post helps you, then use it and tell me what worked.  If a post makes no sense, ignore it (or if you are interested, ask questions).

The only promise I make from now on is that everything I say honestly represents my thoughts and beliefs at that moment.  I reserve the right to change my mind, I reserve the right to believe opposites simultaneously, and I reserve the right to be wrong.  But I will be honest in every case.  Now then, lets get on with it!