I spent almost 2 weeks as a single consciousness. It has been... annoying. All of the cool specializations, the little skills that run counter to my normal temperament, were consumed by my 'average' state. There are too many option and choices for me to keep track of most of the time, so I'm been in a slow chaos. Every now and then my personality or emotional state will shift outside my control, and I can't seem to remember everything I should. I'm lonely, and starting to become depressed. However, the feeling of needing to splinter is gone now. It is more of a wish or desire at this point, but not necessary. I /could/ continue as a single consciousness... but I don't want to
Now it is 3 weeks, and I've finally gotten started! I've decided on a 5 tulpa setup, with myself as one of them. The number was chosen because I didn't want a 4part that would easily copy Generation 4 and 5 (the Flutter/Twi/RD/Pinkie and Director/student/Kudos/Filly generations, respectively). Two part wouldn't work (Law-Chaos failed for that reason) and 3 part isn't... it doesn't feel right. So I'm moving to five! Time to start breaking out the five part templates!
[Next Day]
welp... I've set out a few five part templates and what I got were persuasions None of them are anything near a personality/tulpa... they are too elemental. I couldn't turn them into something with a week of forcing.
I've realized I have a problem. Normally, I splinter out by memory, but because of how much memory I labeled useless with Sammy's death, I've got little enough left. That means these are going to be original tulpa... which I haven't tried in years. Not only that, but four of them. To put is simply, this is going to be hard.
[Today]
Only one way to do this, in the end. I'm going to take a group of characters that I never wrote into stories and begin to modify them. They don't have many memories, but they have personalities and bodies, which is a good starting point. Plus, I have many of them, so I'll be able to come up with something.
Isis (a close friend from IRC) isn't all that happy about me splitting again, but she understands it is for the best. I've sorta been waiting on her approval, considering she was the one who had be break my last set of anchors; I trust her appraisal as much as my own, something I've never said of anyone else.
I'll keep you all updated on my progress. I have a feeling this is set is going to get a bit interesting.
[Next Day]
welp... I've set out a few five part templates and what I got were persuasions None of them are anything near a personality/tulpa... they are too elemental. I couldn't turn them into something with a week of forcing.
I've realized I have a problem. Normally, I splinter out by memory, but because of how much memory I labeled useless with Sammy's death, I've got little enough left. That means these are going to be original tulpa... which I haven't tried in years. Not only that, but four of them. To put is simply, this is going to be hard.
[Today]
Only one way to do this, in the end. I'm going to take a group of characters that I never wrote into stories and begin to modify them. They don't have many memories, but they have personalities and bodies, which is a good starting point. Plus, I have many of them, so I'll be able to come up with something.
Isis (a close friend from IRC) isn't all that happy about me splitting again, but she understands it is for the best. I've sorta been waiting on her approval, considering she was the one who had be break my last set of anchors; I trust her appraisal as much as my own, something I've never said of anyone else.
I'll keep you all updated on my progress. I have a feeling this is set is going to get a bit interesting.
