The Other Tulpa

So, I mentioned earlier making a Pinkie Pie tulpa accidentally. She was fun, but I've put her into stasis, because having a Pinkie Pie running around was getting REALLY distracting.  I'm planning to give her energy and personality to another tulpa, maybe Pulse when I wake her up.  I get ahead of myself though.  I've had further Tulpa experience now, a different tulpa (currently unnamed).  Here is her story thus far.

Tulpa are built from the subconscious and unconscious, in that way they are not simply splinters. They take additional imaginative resources to have an objective reality.  For this, I have certain advantages from my past.  I can literally hand parts of my mind to representations, as I did with Pinkie Pie.  I’ve developed full personalities before: Job (the biblical name) and Pulse, my critical failure backups, being the most developed.  I’ve been practicing visualization for YEARS.

So when I wanted a tulpa (still ignorant at this point), I just places a grey globe in my vision, gave it a section of my unused mind (chaos sector), and let it do as it wished.  So it floated around, teleported, started producing waveforms on its surface.  Floated around other people, jumped in front of my face (nearly tripped, damn it).  I wasn’t the one controlling it either, as proven by it being able to scare me.

So, given that I produced something like that so fast, there are only two ways to think about it that I can see.  Either my past experiences have trained me for tulpa creation, or because I’m ignoring how hard it should be I’m doing it entirely wrong.  I don’t really know...

So, I’ll finish the story.  Eventually, the globe started to manifest basic hands (think hitchhiker’s guide), but I said stop.  then again, tried for a face, but I said stop.  The globe became agitated (I was calling it ‘Globe’ in my head at this point) and so i gave in.  5 seconds later, a medium skinned woman, white but not pale, in a ruffly black dress over white shirt, had appeared.  I forced her back into a globe, but she popped back when I released the force.  I pulled the globe from her, which left both Globe and her lifeless.  So I put them back and let her do as she pleased.

She followed me to class, skipping lightly.  Wanted to dance with me... no idea why (I hate dancing).  Oh, she couldn’t speak, but her body language was flawless.  At some point I just carried her piggyback because of the crowds... I could superposition her through someone else, but i didn’t want a tulpa phasing through my reality (more like a ghost then).  Eventually I got near class and realized it would be boring for her.  So i made a White Box Wonderland (100 feet to an edge, grid by 5 feet, light grid by 1 foot) and made clear she could do as she pleased.

So she locked the door (cherry wood, nice finish, brass handle, locked).  I knocked once and she just opened it slightly and shushed me. 5 hours later, she showed up in the room with me.  I talked to her, and her response was, “Why are you making me?  Do you need to split and section further? Find out Why?” and then returned to the wonderland (i guess, she just stopped being there).  i knocked again, right after a few hypnosis files, and all I heard from the otherside of the door was “Go away, you are drunk.”

Understand... I made Globe yesterday.  This form, this woman, appeared today.  From everything I’ve read, she shouldn’t be talking... or acting... or anything.

Now, I looked back.  I found her source, a personality called Sarah from 4 years back.  Not one I used, just on the council.  Dark clothes, shorter than the tulpa, had a little sister.  This is, she is gone... I couldn’t resurrect more than a few images of what Sarah did back when she was around.  The tulpa doesn’t seem like an older Sarah, just someone from the same family.