Considering Filly1 is gone, all of our previous tulpa were buried as models, and I'm essentially starting anew with the skill that the past gathered, but none of the personalities, I thought it would be worth starting a serious tulpa journal, from the start.
I am using the name FillyOsoPher. I'm keeping the first's name so that I am still recognized on the IRC, primarily. I still have the memory base required to help others, and I still have an interest in doing so. I'm capitalizing certain letters to show the change, and to represent the various tulpa who speak there (instead of the common []{} method).
For myself, I'm Filly on IRC and Sammy IRL. I'm... I suppose the 'host' of this new set. I have no peers, and although Job is more powerful, he is silent and rarely present. Also, I drop down into Oso, which is becoming the standard for recognizing the "host" in our stack.
Job, Oso, and Pulse are still here, hold over from the last set. They are not exactly tulpa, as they were made years before we learned that definition, and thus they rarely talk, only act int he wonderland or by taking over the body. They seem to be as permanent as you can find in our mind, with Job being 11 years old and Pulse being 9. Oso is also years old, but he wasn't named until around 2 months ago (thanks Nifty). Also, since he accesses memory differently, we can't really track how old he is, nor talk to him.
Job is the backup personality and our sub-c butler. He hasn't taken control for more than an hour at a time in the last ten years, but when he does, things change. Usually he is triggered by danger or an entire lack of other controlling tulpa. Although he was intended to take of permanently in the case of a squad wipe, he usually takes the small amount of time he is active to construct a primary and then leaves. He has helped out in the past with single tulpa who were having stability issues.
Oso is more like a reverse mask. When I get incredibly sleep deprived, to the point of simply going to bed in the wonderland, Oso takes over. He usually runs whatever is left on the stack, in order, with nothing but efficiency in mind. Once the stack is done, he puts the body to bed. He is simplistic to an extreme, but he is not a mere servitor, I'm told. As I said above, he seems to access memory differently, so I only have accounts of a few people who have interacted with him to account for his sentience.
Pulse was made as the final backup, should be suffer memory loss of on a large scale, amnesia, or physical trauma. She is split into memory associations all over our memory, in the hope that if even one survives, it will lead back to her and allow for a bit of control. There are multiple pieces of her, spread out by association, to hopefully avoid every piece disappearing. We've no idea how effective it will be, but it gives us peace of mind, and I rather like her.
The Pher set is my current project. I'm not going into too much depth about method, but the idea is to set up a framework for multiple tulpa to exist by balancing them against each other. Originally I predicted this would allow for a faster development time of a large number, but because of a few limitations I placed on quality early, it is turning into a long running experiment. I've been forcing the 'weave' for nearly two weeks, but it is slow going. I gave them each a starter name, body, voice pattern (which turned up insufficient for telling them apart), and connection to the weave, but no singular traits. Some have started to pick their own names and forms, but otherwise, little progress.
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