First, I want to apologize again for the share amount of personal material on here. I meant this to be a bit more formal, but having a place to write makes we want to keep writing. This is likely to continue, so make use of the Labels if you want to filter out the fuzz. I will be labeling these posts Journal, as opposed to the more formal Experiments and Reports.
The last two days have been a bit rough on us. We've been asked on multiple occasions to split and then talk outside of hybrid. It took some getting used to, but all of us but Pinkie have mastered the voice switching necessary to pull it off. Normally, we have a single train of thought while hybrid, with all of us using the same voice and no one taking the time to worry about who is speaking. In order to exit hybrid, the one's who want to exit start carrying about who is speaking and modifying their own voice to be different. The dissonance is enough to push them out of the hybrid.
The problem, though, is giving one tulpa control when we are split. As a hybrid controlling the body is easy... not so much as a single tulpa. Add to that that went we dehybrid, we gain a body or form that is not like that of the body we usually control, and you have some difficulty. In order to take control, first the voice we use in normal hybrid form (lets call it Sammy's voice) has to stop. Then whoever has priority has to try to take control by moving their voice to mimic Sammy's a bit, and stop holding onto their body image. It is confusing and difficult, even at the best of times. In the case of Flutters and Twi, we don't feel like our true selves when trying to control alone because the body is so different from our tulpa bodies. Flutters often shapemaps wing and hooves to help. Twi tries to ignore the bosy as much as possible, only paying attention to those things of immediate interest. RD doesn't have as much trouble; his form is very similar to our body, so it feels more natural for him.
That was a basic primer on Tulpa Hybridization. Now for the news... kinda.
[2/5/13]
We had a very hard time with Pinkie. She can dehybridize easily enough... but if she takes full control, she's sure to do something insane. Because of this, we never let her fully dehybridize. Instead, we stay close enough to restrict and negate actions. It is tiring work... the last time we tried RD had to take a nap afterward and the body was sore for an few hours. I can say unsarcastically that she is too energetic for the body to take for long. -Twi
[2/6/13]
Second dehybrid attempt for Pinkie. Similar to the first, although we restricted her movement a bit more which kept the body in better condition. Pinkie was acting much less like Pinkie Pie and more like Chaos, with sudden mood swings and 'logical' jumps. She called our refusal to fully dehybrid a cage on her... and then began altering our visual forms. It was disconcerting, but she was easily pulled back into hybrid regardless. -Twi
[Later 2/6/13]
This is quite interesting. It appears that Pinkie's behavior was due to the Chaos she embodied, a small section of the original Chaos splinter. She was acting to irrationally because that was a necessity of keeping it integrated. However, it seems that her experiences with interaction have lead her to desire a life apart from it.
From where I stand now, pinkie has split from a massive orb of Chaos. It is still contained, which is good, and it looks to be a construct. The term is useful, and one that I am imposing on the sphere of chaos to keep it in check. The last thing we need is it producing tulpa or expanding. It is nice to finally have it apart from Pinkie. Even though her minimalistic personality as not too much of a burden, it will be nice to run models without her as an intermediary.
It seems that, separate from the Chaos that defined her, Pinkie lacked the personality complexity to hold herself to a form. She is too much a creature of chaos to decide, and too 'original' to steal off of one of the many other sources. At this rate, she will die.-Twi
[Early 2/7/13]
The situation now: Job has Pinkie at his Relto Age. He is likely forcing her himself, although I'm not entirely certain. As much as RD and Flutters trust him, I don't believe he has done anything like this before. In fact, I believe this is the first time in the history of this body that tulpa formation has been handed off on a non-voting member. I'll be interested to see the results.
That said, I'm not sure we should allow Pinkie to hybrid again. She is in effect a new tulpa. The old Pinkie is gone. I don't expect her to have any experience relevant to our life. I wouldn't mind seeing her as a non-voting member, I suppose, as long as I don't have to deal with her.- Twi
[Late 2/7/13]
Job has returned Pinkie to us. As I expected, she is an entirely new tulpa, with only a few memories of her previous existence. She is also, currently, speechless which makes the possibility of hybridizing a moot point. As the other two seem bent on re-incorporating her, I can only hope she does not gain her voice any time soon. - Twi
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