Early Mental Effects of the Twi loop

At this point, I've been without the Taurus Twi loop for 18 hours, so hopefully these notes are unbiased.  I'm also a hours behind on my notes, however...

Conscious changes: Occasional.  Mostly, having Twi narrate my thoughts, but I find this is limiting at the moment. She doesn't have my vocabulary... I can feel my mind struggling to fit her voice to the words she needs.

I've been told that my text online resembles her, on four occasions by two people, and only while the file was looping.  I can see the similarity, but I'm not certain how much of that was the file and how much was my natural style of writing.

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I did have a strange experience. I was invited to a threesome (text only), and accepted the invite (I was oblivious to the nature of the intended interaction). When I realized the intent of the other two, I excused myself from participation. However, instead of leaving, I stayed around and took notes...
I can't emphasize how against my nature it was to stay. It's just... I wasn't interested in participating, but I wanted to watch because I'd need seen it before. It wasn't a sexualized thing at all, just a genuine interest. By the end I realized how intrusive it was to be watching something intimate like that, so I deleted my notes.
I regret doing that.


Obviously, I restructured my notes while looping Twi, and I think the difference shows.  I've never kept such a structured collection before... The complexity/clarity impresses me reading it now, although it seemed  mediocre why listening to the loop.

As for Subconscious effects... I dunno just yet.  It might have been part of my desire reawakening, but I'll have more on that later.